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She is here
It's been a month. I'm sitting here, four weeks postpartum with my baby girl beside me, sleeping sweetly. So here is how it went: After...
Erin Jaye
Feb 1210 min read
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31 weeks of disbelief
It's been forever since I wrote last. And this entry makes me feel... uncomfortable. But the reality is that I need to push myself back...
Erin Jaye
Nov 12, 20248 min read
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I don’t fully believe this is happening again
Only made it to 5 weeks this time, when I got the dreaded phone call from my GP on Friday afternoon. I was sitting in my car, happy and...
Erin Jaye
Jan 29, 20231 min read
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The deepest melancholy of my life
It's the 23rd of January. This time a year ago we were so anxiously happy. It was a busy, happy time. Noah was about to have his first...
Erin Jaye
Dec 23, 20222 min read
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The heart breaking meeting with the Prince Charles Hospital
Monday the 6th of June. It was a date I dreaded with all my being, and I had no idea how I would force myself back into that hospital...
Erin Jaye
Jul 29, 20225 min read
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Losing myself to reality
Time stopped after my birthday. I withdrew into myself and the hyperproductivity abruptly ended. I sunk into a depression I never knew...
Erin Jaye
May 17, 20223 min read
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Suri's put to rest...
In those early days, everything felt confusing. To be honest, that never really improved. I was in shock, I realise now. I became hyper...
Erin Jaye
May 10, 20222 min read
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What came next
The first night we held each other, Adam and I. There was a pull out couch and when they found us trying to sleep together on a single...
Erin Jaye
Feb 21, 20224 min read
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The Day After
I spent the night alone in the birthing suite. I was so weirdly concerned about the staff around me. They had been SO incredible and...
Erin Jaye
Feb 8, 20224 min read
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The life and death of Suri
I think absolutely everyone in life has had a heartache of some sort. I remember when I was a teenager, the things that hurt me to the...
Erin Jaye
Jan 9, 202217 min read
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